Ye loved me, damsel, surely with a love
Far tenderer than my Queen's.
Farewell, fair lily. "Jealousy in love?"
Not rather dead love's harsh heir, jealous pride? Queen, if I grant the jealousy as of love, May not your crescent fear for name and fame Speak, as it waxes, of a love that wanes? Why did the King dwell on my name to me? Mine own name shames me, seeming a reproach, Lancelot, whom the Lady of the Lake Caught from his mother's arms
Who passes thro' the vision of the night — She chanted snatches of mysterious hymns Heard on the winding waters, eve and morn She kiss'd me saying, "Thou art fair, my child, As a king's son," and often in her arms
She bare me, pacing on the dusky mere. Would she had drown'd me in it, where'er it be ! For what am I? what profits me my name Of greatest knight? I fought for it, and have it: Pleasure to have it, none; to lose it, pain; Now grown a part of me: but what use in it. To make men worse by making my sin known? Or sin seem less, the sinner seeming great? Alas for Arthur's greatest knight, a man
Not after Arthur's heart! I needs must break These bonds that so defame me: not without She wills it would I, if she will'd it? nay, Who knows? but if I would not, then may God,
I pray him, send a sudden Angel down To seize me by the hair and bear me far,
And fling me deep in that forgotten mere, Among the tumbled fragments of the hills.'
So groan'd Sir Lancelot in remorseful pain, Not knowing he should die a holy man.
THAT Story which the bold Sir Bedivere, First made and latest left of all the knights, Told, when the man was no more than a voice In the white winter of his age, to those With whom he dwelt, new faces, other minds.
For on their march to westward, Bedivere, Who slowly paced among the slumbering host, Heard in his tent the moanings of the King:
'I found Him in the shining of the stars, I mark'd Him in the flowering of His fields, But in His ways with men I find Him not. I waged His wars, and now I pass and die. O me! for why is all around us here As if some lesser god had made the world, But had not force to shape it as he would, Till the High God behold it from beyond, And enter it, and make it beautiful? Or else as if the world were wholly fair, But that these eyes of men are dense and dim, And have not power to see it as it is: Perchance, because we see not to the close; For I, being simple, thought to work His will, And have but stricken with the sword in vain; And all whereon I lean'd in wife and friend Is traitor to my peace, and all my realm
Reels back into the beast, and is no more. My God, thou hast forgotten me in my death: Nay-God my Christ- I pass but shall not die.'
Then, ere that last weird battle in the west, There came on Arthur sleeping, Gawain kill'd In Lancelot's war, the ghost of Gawain blown Along a wandering wind, and past his ear Went shrilling, 'Hollow, hollow all delight! Hail, King! to-morrow thou shalt pass away. Farewell! there is an isle of rest for thee. And I am blown along a wandering wind, And hollow, hollow, hollow all delight.' And fainter onward, like wild birds that change Their season in the night and wail their way
From cloud to cloud, down the long wind the dream Shrill'd; but in going mingled with dim cries Far in the moonlit haze among the hills, As of some lonely city sack'd by night,
When all is lost, and wife and child with wail Pass to new lords; and Arthur woke and call'd, 'Who spake? A dream. O light upon the wind, Thine, Gawain, was the voice- are these dim cries Thine? or doth all that haunts the waste and wild Mourn, knowing it will go along with me?'
This heard the bold Sir Bedivere and spake : 'O me, my King, let pass whatever will, Elves, and the harmless glamour of the field; But in their stead thy name and glory cling To all high places like a golden cloud For ever: but as yet thou shalt not pass.
Light was Gawain in life, and light in death
Is Gawain, for the ghost is as the man;
And care not thou for dreams from him, but rise
I hear the steps of Modred in the west,
And with him many of thy people, and knights
Once thine, whom thou hast loved, but grosser grown
Than heathen, spitting at their vows and thee. Right well in heart they know thee for the King. Arise, go forth and conquer as of old.'
Then spake King Arthur to Sir Bedivere: 'Far other is this battle in the west
Whereto we move, than when we strove in youth, And brake the petty kings, and fought with Rome, Or thrust the heathen from the Roman wall, And shook him thro' the north. Ill doom is mine To war against my people and my knights. The king who fights his people fights himself.
And they my knights, who loved me once, the stroke That strikes them dead is as my death to me.
Yet let us hence, and find or feel a way
Thro' this blind haze, which ever since I saw
One lying in the dust at Almesbury,
Hath folded in the passes of the world.'
Then rose the King and moved his host by night, And ever push'd Sir Modred, league by league, Back to the sunset bound of Lyonnesse A land of old upheaven from the abyss By fire, to sink into the abyss again; Where fragments of forgotten peoples dwelt, And the long mountains ended in a coast
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