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that seek it are likeliest to attain it. 5. He that is
Protestants in Germany, who, seeing the Princes in England, France, Bohemia, and many other countries, to be all at once both great and wise, and friends to reformation, did presently expect the golden age; but, within one year, either death, or ruins of war, or backslidings, had exposed all their expectations to scorn, and laid them lower than before.
My soul is much more afflicted with the thoughts of the miserable world, and more drawn out in desire of their conversion, than heretofore. I was wont to look but little farther than England in my prayers, as not considering the state of the rest of the world; or, if I prayed for the conversion of the Jews, that was almost all. But now, as I better understand the case of the world, and the method of the Lord's Prayer, so there is nothing in the world that lieth so heavy upon my heart as the thought of the miserable nations of the earth. It is the most astonishing part of all God's providence to me, that he so far forsaketh almost all the world, and confineth his special favour to so few;that so small a part of the world hath the profession of Christianity, in comparison of Heathens, Mahometans, and other infidels ;-and that, among professed Christians, there are so few that are saved from gross delusions, and have but any competent knowledge; and that, among those, there are so few that are seriously religious, and truly set their hearts on heaven. I cannot be affected so much with the calamities of my own relations, or the land of my nativity, as with the case of the Heathen, Mahometan, and ignorant nations
of the earth. No part of my prayers are so deeply serious, as that for the conversion of the infidel and ungodly world, that God's name may be sanctified, and his kingdom come, and his will be done on earth, as it is in heaven : nor was I ever before so sensible what a plague the division of languages was, which hindereth our speaking to them for their conversion; nor what a great sin tyranny is, which keepeth out the gospel from most of the nations of the world. Could we but go among Tartarians, Turks, and Heathens, and speak their language, I should be but little troubled for the silencing of eighteen hundred Ministers at once in England, nor for all the rest that were cast out here, and in Scotland and Ireland; there being no employment in the world so desirable in my eyes, as to labour for the winning of such miserable souls : - which maketh me greatly honour Mr. John Eliot, the Apostle of the Indians, in New England; and whoever else have laboured in such work.
Though my habitual judgment, and resolution, and scope of life, be still the same, yet I find a great mutability as to actual apprehensions, and degrees of grace; and consequently find, that so mutable a thing as the mind of man would never keep itself, if God were not its keeper.
And that which I named before, on the bye, is grown one of my great diseases: I have lost much of that zeal which I had to propagate any truths to others, save the mere fundamentals. When I perceive people, or Ministers, which is too common, to think they know
what indeed they do not, and to dispute those things which they never thoroughly studied, or expect I should debate the case with them, as if an hour's talk would serve instead of an acute understanding and seven years' study, I have no zeal to make them of my opinion, but an impatience of continuing discourse with them on such subjects; and am apt to be silent, or turn to something else: which (though there be some reason for it) I feel cometh from a want of zeal for the truth, and from an impatient temper of mine. ready to think that people should quickly understand all in a few words; and, if they cannot, lazily to despair of them, and leave them to themselves. And I the more know that it is sinful in me, because it is partly so in other things: even about the faults of my servants, or other inferiors, if three or four times' warning do no good on them, I am much tempted to despair of them, and turn them away, and leave them to themselves.
I mention all these distempers, that my faults may be a warning to others, to take heed; as they call on myself for repentance and watchfulness. O Lord! for the merits and sacrifice and intercession of Christ, be merciful to me a sinner; and forgive my known, and unknown, sins!
MANUAL FOR THE WINCHESTER SCHOLABS.")
A MORNING HYMN.
AWAKE, my soul! and with the sun
* The theologic accuracy of this line is questioned ; and justly. As Sir Matthew Hale observes (see p. 83), “ Time, once lost, is lost for ever : all the wealth of both the Indies will not redeem, nor recall, the last hour I spent.” Neither will tenfold diligence hereafter. But the sense is obvious : Let the remembrance of past time, mis-spent, quicken me in the duty of redeeming the time yet before me! It is in unison with 2 Corinthians vii. 11.