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this condition I am broken in upon by a charning young woman, my daughter, who is the picture of what her mother was on her wedding-day. The good girl strives to comfort me; but how shall I let you know, that all the comfort she gives me is to make my tears flow more easily? The child knows she quickens my sorrows, and rejoices my heart at the same time. Oh ye learned! tell me by what word to speak a motion of the soul for which there is no name. When she kneels and bids me be comforted, she is my child; when I take her in my arms, and bid her say no more, she is my very wife, and is the very comforter I lament the loss of. I banish her the room, and weep aloud that I have lost her mother, and that I have her.
« Mr. Spectator, I wish it were possible for you to have a sense of these pleasing perplexities ! you might communicate to the guilty part of mankind, that they are incapable of the happiness which is in the very sorrows of the virtuous.
“ But pray spare me a little longer; give me leave to tell you the manner of her death. She took leave of all her family, and bore the vain application of medicines with the greatest patience imaginable. When the physician told her she must certainly die, she desired, as well as she could, that all who were present, except myself, might depart the room. She said she had nothing to say, for she was resigned, and I knew all she knew that concerned us in this world; but she desired to be alone, that in the presence of God only she might, without interruption, do her last duty to me, of thanking me for all my kindness to her; adding, that she hoped in my last moments I should feel the same comfort for my goodness to her, as she did in that she had acquitted herself with honor, truth, and virtue, to me.
“ I curb myself, and will not tell you that this kindness cut my heart in twain, when I expected an accusation for some passionate starts of mine, in some parts of our time together, to say nothing but thank me for the good, if there was any good suitable to her own excellence! All that I had ever said to her, all the circumstances of sorrow and joy between us, crowded upon my mind in the same instant; and when immediately after I saw the pangs of death come upon
that dear body which I had often embraced with transport, when I saw those cherishing eyes begin to be ghastly, and their last struggle to be to fix themselves on me, how did I lose all patience ? She expired in my arms, and in my distraction I thought I saw her bosom still heave. There was certainly life yet still left; I cried, she just now spoke to me : but alas ! I grew giddy, and all things moved about me from the distemper of my own head; for the best of women was breathless, and gone for
6 Now the doctrine I would, methinks, have you raise from this account I have given you, is, that there is a certain equanimity in those who are good and just, which runs into their very sorrow, and disappoints the force of it. Though they must pass through afflictions in common with all who are in human nature, yet their conscious integrity shall undermine their affiction: nay, that very affliction shall add force to their integrity, from a reflection of the use of virtue in the hour of affliction. I sat down with a design to put you upon giving us rules how to overcome such griefs as these, but I should rather advise teach men to be capable of them.
“ You men of letters have what you call the fine taste in your apprehensions of what is properly done
or said : there is something like this deeply grafted in the soul of him who is honest and faithful in all his thoughts and actions. Every thing which is false, vicious, or unworthy, is despicable to him, though all the world should approve it. At the same time he has the most lively sensibility in all enjoyments and sufferings which it is proper for him to have, where any duty of life is concerned. To want sorrow when you in decency and truth should be afflicted, is, I should think, a greater instance of a man's being a blockhead, than not to know the beauty of any passage in Virgil. You have not yet observed, Mr. Spectator, that the fine gentlemen of this age set up for hardness of heart, and humanity has very little share in their pretences. He is a brave fellow who is always ready to kill a man he hates, but he does not stand in the same degree of esteem who laments for the woman he loves. I should fancy you might work up a thousand pretty thoughts, by reflecting upon the persons most susceptible of the sort of sorrow I have spoken of; and I dare say you will find, upon examination, that they are the wisest and the bravest of mankind who are the most capable of it, Norwich,
“ I am, Sir, 70 Octobris, 6. Your most humble servant,
TUESDAY, October 28, 17412.
Vera redit facics, dissimulata perit.
The real face returns, the counterfeit is lost.
6 MR. SPECTATOR,
HAVE been for many years loud in this assertion, that there are very few that can see or hear, I mean that can report what they have seen or heard ; and this through incapacity or prejudice, one of which disables almost every man who talks to you
from representing things as he ought. For which reason I am come to a resolution of believing nothing I hear; and I contemn the man given to narrations under the appellation of a matter-of-fact man; and, according to me, a matter-of-fact man is one whose life and conversation is spent in the report of what is not matter of fact.
“ I remember when Prince Eugene was here, there was no knowing his height or figure, till you, Mr. Spectator, gave the public satisfaction in that matter. In relations, the force of the expression lies very often more in the look, the tone of voice, or the gesture, than the words themselves; which, being repeated in any other manner by the undiscerning, bear a very different interpretation from their original meaning must confess I formerly have turned
this humor of mine to very good account; for wienever I heard any narration uttered with extraordinary vehemence, and grounded upon considerable authority, I was always ready to lay any wager that it was not
Indeed, I never pretended to be so rash as to fix the matter any particular way in opposition to theirs ; but as there are a hundred ways of any thing happening, besides that it has happened, I only controverted its falling out in that one manner as they settled it, and left it to the ninety-nine other ways, and consequently had more probability of success.
I had arrived at a particular skill in warming a man so far in his narration as to make him throw in a little of the marvellous, and then, if he has much fire, the next degree is the impossible. Now this is always the time for fixing the wager.
But this requires the nicest management, otherwise very probably the dispute may arise to the old determination by battle. In these conceits I have been very fortunate, and have
some wagers of those who have professedly valued themselves upon intelligence, and have put, themselves to great charge and expense to be misinformed considerably sooner than the rest of the worldar
“ Having got a comfortable sum by this my opposition to public report, I have brought myself now to so: great a perfection in inattention, more especially to party relations, that at the same time I seemn with: greedy ears to devour up the discourse, I certainly do: not know one word of it, but pursue my own course. of thought, whether upon business or amusementy. with much tranquillity : I say inattention, because a late act of parliament (a) has secured all party liars from the penalty of a wager, and consequently made it unprofitable to attend to them. However, goodbreeding obliges a man to maintain the figure of the