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To treasure in my mind
passages for recollection. 'To rise early; not later than six, if I can;
I hope sooner, but as soon as I can. To keep a journal, both of employments
and of expences. To keep accounts. To take care of my health, by such means
as I have designed. To set down at night some plan for the
Last year I prayed on my birth-day, by
accommodating the Morning Collect for grace, putting year for day. This I did this day.
Sept. 18, 1764. O God, heavenly Father, who desirest not the death of a sinner, grant that I may turn from my wickedness and live. . Enable me to shake off all impediments of lawful action, and so to order my life, that increase of days may produce increase of grace, of tranquillity of thought, and vigour in duty. Grant that my resolves may be effectual to a holy life, and a happy death, for Jesus Christ's sake, Amen.
To-morrow I purpose to regulate my
April 7, about Three in the Morning I purpose again to partake of the blessed
Sacrament; yet when I consider how vainly I have hitherto resolved, at this annual commemoration of my Saviour's death, to regulate my life by his laws, I am almost afraid to renew my resolutions. Since the last Easter I have reformed no evil habit, my time has been unprofitably spent, and seems as a dream that has left nothing behind. My memory grows confused, and I know not how the days pass over me.
Good Lord, deliver me.
I will call upon God to-morrow for repentance and amendment.
ó heavenly Father, let' not my call be vain, but grant me to desire what may please Thee; and fulfil those desires for Jesus Christ's sake. Amen.
My resolutions, which God perfect, are,
1. To avoid loose thoughts.
I hope to extend these purposes to other
duties; but it is necessary to combat evil habits singly. I purpose to rise at eight, because, though I shall not yet rise early, it will be much earlier than I now rise, for I often lie till two, and will gain me much time, and tend to a conquest over idleness, and give time for other duties. I hope to rise yet earlier.
LMIGHTY and most merciful Father, who hatest nothing that Thou hast made, nor desirest the death of a sinner, look down with mercy upon me, and grant that I may turn from my wickedness and live. Forgive the days and years which I have passed in folly, idleness, and sin. Fill me with such sorrow for the time mispent, that I may amend my life according to thy holy word; strengthen me against habitual idleness, and enable me to direct ny thoughts to the performance of every duty; that while I live I may serve Thee in the state to which Thou shalt call me; and at last, by a holy and happy death, be delivered from the struggles and sorrows of this life, and obtain eternal happiness by thy mercy, for the sake of Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
O God, have mercy on me.
At church I purpose, Before I leave the pew, to pray the occasional prayer, and read
and read my resolutions. To pray for Tetty and the rest. The like after communion. At intervals to use the Collects of Fourth
after Trinity, and First and Fourth after · Epiphany, and to meditate.
This was done, as I purposed, but with some distraction. I came in at the Psalms, and could not well hear. I renewed
my resolutions at the altar. God perfect them. Then I came home. I prayed, and have hope; grant, O Lord, for the sake of Jesus Christ, that my hope may not be vain.