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On this whole day I took nothing of nou
rishment but one cup of tea without milk; but the fast was very inconvenient. Towards night I grew fretful and impatient, unable to fix my mind, or govern my thoughts; and felt a very uneasy sensation both in my stomach and head, compounded, as it seemed, of laxity and pains.
From this uneasiness, of which when I
was not asleep I was sensible all night, I was relieved in the morning by drinking tea, and eating the soft part of a
This I have set down for future observa
Saturday, April 10, I dined on cakes, and
found myself filled and satisfied.
Saturday 10. Having offered my prayers
to God, I will now review the last year,
Of the spring and summer, I remember
that I was able in those seasons to examine and improve my Dictionary, and was seldom withheld from the work but by my own unwillingness. Of my nights I have no distinct remembrance, but believe that, as in many foregoing years, they were painful and restless.
O God, grant that I may not mispend or
lose the time which Thou shalt yet allow me. For Jesus Christ's sake, have mercy upon me.
My purpose is to attain, in the remaining
part of the year, as much knowledge as can easily be had of the Gospels and Pentateuch. Concerning the Hebrew I am in doubt. I hope likewise to enlarge my knowledge of divinity, by reading, at least once a week, some sermon, or small theological tract, or some portion of a larger work.
To this important and extensive study, my purpose
is to appropriate (liberè) part of every Sunday, holyday, Wednesday, and Friday, and to begin with the Gospels. Perhaps I may not be able to study the Pentateuch before next year.
My general resolution, to which I humbly
implore the help of God, is to methodise my life, to resist sloth. I hope from this time to keep a journal.
N. B. On Friday I read the first of Mark,
and Clarke's Sermon on Faith,
On Saturday I read little, but wrote the
foregoing account, and the following prayer.
April 10, near Midnight. Almighty God, by whose mercy I am now about to commemorate the death of my Redeemer, grant that from this time I may so live, as that his death may be efficacious to my eternal happiness; enable me to conquer all evil customs; deliver me from evil and vexatious thoughts; grant me light to discover my duty, and grace to perform it. As my life advances, let me become more pure, and more holy. Take not from me thy Holy Spirit, but grant that I may serve Thee with diligence and confidence; and when Thou shalt call me hence, receive me to everlasting happiness, for the sake of Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
April 11, 1773. I had more disturbance in the night than
has been customary for some weeks past. I rose before nine in the morning, and prayed and drank tea. I came, I think, to church in the beginning of the · prayers. I did not distinctly hear the
Psalms, and found that I had been reading the Psalms for Good Friday. I went through the Litany, after a short disturbance, with tolerable attention.
After sermon, I perused my prayer in the
pew, then went nearer the altar, and being introduced into another pew, used my Prayer again, and recommended my relations, with Bathurst and Boothby, then my wife again by herself. Then I went nearer the altar, and read the collects chosen for meditation. I prayed for Salisbury, and, I think, the Thrales. I then communicated with calmness, used the collect for Easter Day, and returning to the first pew,prayed my prayer the third time. I came home; again used my Prayer and the Easter Collect. Then went into the study to Boswell, and read the Greek Testament. Then dined, and when Boswell went away, ended the four first chapters of St. Matthew, and the Beatitudes of the fifth.