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sible to guess at the way that Chinaman draws his conclusions, and how he looks upon one."

"Don't talk about him. He makes me feel uncomfortable. Talk about yourself."

"About myself? I see you are still busy with the mystery of my existence here; but it isn't at all mysterious. Primarily the man with the quill pen in his hand in that picture you so often look at is responsible for my existence. He is also responsible for what my existence is, or rather has been. He was a great man in his way. I don't know much of his history. I suppose he began like other people; took fine words for good, ringing coin and noble ideals for valuable banknotes. He was a great master of both, himself, by the way. Later he discovered-how am I to explain it to you? Suppose the world were a factory and all mankind workmen in it. Well, he discovered that the wages were not good enough. That they were paid in counterfeit money." "I see!" the girl said slowly.

"Do you?"

Heyst, who had been speaking as if to himself, looked up curiously.

"It wasn't a new discovery, but he brought his capacity for scorn to bear on it. It was immense. It ought to have withered this globe. I don't know how many minds he convinced. But my mind was very young then and youth I suppose, can be easily seduced even by a negation. He was very ruthless, and yet he was not without pity. He dominated me without difficulty. A heartless man could not have done so. Even to fools he was not utterly

less. He could be indignant, but he was too great for flouts and jeers. What he said was not meant for the crowd; it could not be; and I was flattered to find myself among the elect. They read his books, but I have heard his living word. It was irresistible. It was as if that mind were taking me into ats confidence, giving me a special insight into its mastery of despair. Mistake, no doubt. There is something of my father in every man who lives long enough. But they don't say anything. They can't. They wouldn't know how, or perhaps, they wouldn't peak if they could. Man on this earth is an unforeI seen accident which does not stand close investigation. However, that particular man died as quietly is a child goes to sleep. But, after listening to him, could not take my soul down into the street to fight tere. I started off to wander about, an independe + spectator—if that is possible."

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For a long time the girl's grey eyes had been watchin his face. She discovered that, addressing her, he was really talking to himself. Heyst looked up, cau. ht sight of her as it were, and caught himself up, with a low laugh and a change of tone.

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All this does not tell you why I ever came here. Why indeed? It's like prying into inscrutable mysch are not worth scrutinising. A man drifts. he most successful men have drifted into their stresses. I don't want to tell you that this is suc 7. You wouldn't believe me if I did. It t;ther is it the ruinous failure it looks. nothing, unless perhaps some hidden weakv character-and even that is not certain."

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He looked fixedly at her, and with such grave that she felt obliged to smile faintly at him, since sh did not understand what he meant. Her smile wa reflected, still fainter, on his lips.

"This does not advance you much in your inquiry, he went on. "And in truth your question is unan swerable; but facts have a certain positive value, and I will tell you a fact. One day I met a cornered man. I use the word because it expresses the man's situation exactly, and because you just used it your. self. You know what that means?"

"What do you say?" she whispered, astounded "A man!"

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Heyst laughed at her wondering eyes. "No! No! I mean in his own way." "I knew very well it couldn't be anything lik that," she observed under her breath.

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"I won't bother you with the story. It was a cul tom-house affair, strange as it may sound to yɔ He would have preferred to be killed outright is, to have his soul despatched to another world, ra h than to be robbed of his substance, his very is nificant substance, in this. I saw that he believed in another world because, being cornered, as I have toka you, he went down on his knees and prayed. What do you think of that?"

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conceal a smile. Somehow it didn't look a smiling matter. No, it was not funny; it was rather pathetic; he was so representative of all the past victims of the Great Joke. But it is by folly alone that the world moves, and so it is a respectable thing upon the whole. And besides, he was what one would call a good man. I don't mean especially because he had offered up a prayer. No! He was really a decent fellow, he : was quite unfitted for this world, he was a failure, a 2 good man cornered—a sight for the gods; for no decent mortal cares to look at that sort." A thought seemed to occur to him. He turned his face to the girl. "And you, who have been cornered too-did you think of offering a prayer?"

Neither her eyes nor a single one of her features moved the least bit. She only let fall the words: "I am not what they call a good girl."

"That sounds evasive," said Heyst after a short si ence. "Well, the good fellow did pray and after ⚫ he had confessed to it I was struck by the comicality of the situation. No, don't misunderstand me-I am not alluding to his act, of course. And even the idea of Eternity, Infinity, Omnipotence, being called upon to defeat the conspiracy of two miserable Portuguese half-castes did not move my mirth. From the point of view of the supplicant, the danger to be conjured was something like the end of the world, or worse. No! What captivated my fancy was that I, Axel Heyst, the most detached of creatures in this earthly captivity, the veriest tramp on this earth, an indifferent strol W going through the world's bustle

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"You are putting it on," she interrupted in her seductive voice, with a coaxing intonation.

"No. I am like that, born or fashioned, or both. I am not for nothing the son of my father, of that man in the painting. I am he, all but the genius. And there is even less in me than I make out, because the very scorn is falling away from me year after year. I have never been so amused as by that episode in which I was suddenly called to act such an incredible part. For a moment I enjoyed it greatly. I got him out of his corner, you know."

"You saved a man for fun-is that what you mean? Just for fun?"

"Why this tone of suspicion?" remonstrated He "I suppose the sight of this particular distress s disagreeable to me. What you call fun came a erward, when it dawned on me that I was for him a walking, breathing, incarnate proof of the efficacy of prayer. I was a little fascinated by it-a: her, could I have argued with him? You don't argue against such evidence and besides it would have looked as if I had wanted to claim all the merit Already his gratitude was simply frightful. Funny position, wasn't it? The boredom ca ne later, wher we lived together on board his ship. I had, on a mo ment of inadvertence, created for myself a ti. How to define it precisely I don't kno tached in a way to people one done mething for. But is that friendship?

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