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plete, "complete in him;" every sin forgiven, and a perfect salvation freely offered to me. O may this Holy Spirit daily, nay hourly, renew us-without divine grace we can do nothing; if, for one moment, we were to depend on our own strength, should we not, alas! resemble the builder in the Gospel who founded his house upon the sand. We must be constantly looking upward, for fresh supplies of grace and heavenly assistance. God will send down his Spirit into our hearts if we only ask in faith.'

Saturday, 3.-He had this day bought a copy of the Olney Hymns; he said, 'I have long wished for this little volume; it is my intention to mark it throughout, and if you do not object, I should like you to have it when I am gone; and whenever you look on my little Olney, you will think--' In infinite mercy was the possessor of these beautiful Hymns, early removed from a world of misery and sin.' When 'you receive this little volume your friend will have ceased to require the use of earthly books; he will have learned a better and a sweeter Hymn, than any that our favourite Olney contains.'

Monday, 5.-We passed the B-x--ve church yard; he said, 'Ah soon, I think, will my grave be made in that peaceful church yard. I

should like to be buried there, and then you

and dear Ey, and my M――y, would come Mand look on my grave, and think on all that God did for the soul of your departed P▬▬n; and that would lead you to praise him, and to hold sweet converse together on the exceeding love and mercy of our heavenly Father. I have often thought that I should not wish to have any history on my tomb-stone; but I think a single text of Scripture might, perhaps, do good; because, in village churches, the poor people often assemble, for some time, before the hour that the service begins, and then walk about, and read the inscriptions on the grave stones; and who can say, but that some of my poor fellow-sinners might be awakened and struck, by reading a text of Scripture, even on my tomb-stone. So I think I should like one single verse to be chosen; I doubt not but that a more appropriate one might be selected, but the feeling of my mind is, "God be merciful to me a sinner." How beautifully does this sentiment exhibit his deep and pious humility: from the first dawnings of spiritual light upon his soul, this feeling of meekness and poverty of spirit beamed with peculiar lustre.

Tuesday, 6.-Had an hour's converse with

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him. How sweet and how wonderful is it, to trace the over-ruling hand of God, which has been so visibly displayed in all that has befallen me: in my illness, in my friendship, and constant intercourse with you; in short, in every thing, I, who am so great a sinner, what mercy have I experienced. How surprized they would be (alluding to those around him) if they knew what we are talking of. I wish they loved these things as we do. Look at that picture, (pointing to a beautiful Madonna hanging opposite to where he was sitting,) there is a sweet expression of pious gratitude in that countenance. I often lie here on this sofa and fix my eyes upon it, till my own heart overflows with abundant thankfulness to my I love to think on all he has done for me. Will you write a meditation on Micah vii. 18. "Who is a God like unto thee that pardoneth iniquity, and passeth by the transgression of the remnant of his heritage? He retaineth not his anger for ever, because he delighteth in mercy." That will suit my case,' he said, with deep emotion.

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Thursday, 8.-No opportunity for converse, He brought the following letter.

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'O my friend, how mercifully is God dealing with me; how wonderfully does he support my weak frame. When my pain is most violent, then I cough less. O that I could praise my Heavenly Father in some measure proportionate to all the mercies he gives me, and for all his goodness towards me: do help and assist your poor, weak, sinful, declining friend, .. he is not half thankful enough! "Who is a God like unto thee that pardoneth iniquity and passeth by the transgression of the remnant of his heritage? He retaineth not his anger for ever, because he delighteth in mercy! Who am I that God should be so merciful to me? O, my friend, I am a great sinner; but, God has shewed me that he will have mercy upon sinners who come to him. "What shall I render to the Lord for all his benefits towards me?" I cannot tell you how delighted I am with dear little Olney, how beautiful are the hymns it contains, and some of them I find so exactly suited to my case. I am so happy that I thought of getting it.'

Friday, 9.-Had a great deal of serious con

versation this day, which he appeared much to enjoy; though at times he was very deeply affected. He began his interesting converse in the following manner:—

'Had it pleased God to restore my health, oh, what a different life would I have led! I would no more have served idols; and I can seriously say that the only thing which a short time since, gave me a desire for a renewal of my health and strength, was the wish that I might yet have an opportunity of praising God in my life and conversation; and this, I trust, I should have been enabled to do, because I lean not to my own understanding. I have learned from whom I must derive the power of acting, even from the eternal fountain of all strength; and he, who in mercy changed my heart, and gave me the inclination and the desire to serve him, would not have withheld his grace, or refused me a supply of his strength to enable me to perform his will, if I had asked it in believing prayer. To him I now go for all my strength; I am very weak in myself. I have no power at all, I pray to him in my time of need, and blessed be his holy name, he has never yet sent me empty away. Oh! when I reflect that I once depended entirely on myself! how could

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