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ing to the verse," To you which believe, he is precious;" he closed his Bible, and looking up to heaven, with his eyes filled with tears, he said, My Saviour is precious to me! My sinful soul, almost lost, has been saved by Jesus, my Saviour-oh blessed Jesus!'

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Monday 24.-For the last fortnight I have been particularly comfortable, and unusually happy. I have felt weak in my body, and my health is not what it was, even a month ago; but I feel strong in the Lord; he renews my inner man day by day. I have long and earnestly prayed, that I might live nearer to God, and of late I am sure I may say, he has heard my prayer, and enabled me to do it; and it is this which makes me so happy. He gives me freely to taste of his heavenly peace, and grace to live by faith on his tried promises. I am always thinking of all that God has done for me, and this makes me humble, patient, and thankful. Oh, no person can tell what my feelings are, but the great searcher of hearts knows how I desire to love and praise him. Before we part, let me intreat of you to continue to pray for me; remember you have promised.' . . . . A few days absence from home deprived us of the society of our dear young

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friend from Tuesday the 25th, to Monday the 1st of July. We returned on Saturday the 29th, and he paid his accustomed visit on Monday, July 1.-Since you left me I have continued to experience much of the joy of heavenly meditation. I can think of my death as very near, and yet have not one fear; one doubt. All is peace and joy within; the eleventh hour was allowed me, and I was enabled to obey my Saviour's call; I often think of this great mercy! Oh, it almost overpowers me; so nearly lost!—and yet the door of mercy left open; and soon-ah! very soon I shall enter in, enter into rest. Every hour, every passing moment brings us nearer to our rest.'

He asked to have a meditation written for him on Hebrews xii. 3. "Consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds;" and added some observations relative to the inconceivable sufferings of the Saviour.

Our endeared companion departed this day for Bor, where it was thought expedient that he should pass a fortnight, for the sake of trying the effects of sea-air. He left behind him another testimony to the evident growth of

divine grace in his soul, in the letter which

follows:

No. 9.

Thus am I again to be moved from my quiet B-x-ve; I feel that it is all kindness in those who wish to take me to Bo-r, and for their satisfaction I am willing to go; but as for the Bo-r air, it can do nothing for me; no place can make me happier than I am now; ah! my friend, I have a peace within which passes all understanding. I feel certainly much weaker; and my breathing become shorter than usual, makes me languid, and renders me unfit for any exertion; but neither Bo―r air, nor any other air, can do my complaint the smallest good; the hand of the Lord is upon me, and these symptoms are sent in much mercy to warn me that I am not long to sojourn here below. God is quickly coming to call me hence, and oh! I ask of you, my friend, pray fervently that my soul may be found ready. Yesterday I had a most comfortable day, and whilst they were all at church, I enjoyed the quiet in prayer and meditation. 'O blessed Lord, praised and adored be

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Thou, for all Thy great mercies bestowed upon me, more particularly for those of the day past. O my friend, I can with truth and sincerity say, that I most willingly resign all the trivial pleasures, vain thoughts, and deceitful amusements of this world, and desire to give myself entirely to my Saviour; pray that I may be enabled during the remainder of those days which may yet be allowed me, to glorify my God in my walk and conversation. Oh that I could do something which should testify to the praise of my Redeemer; oh that I could assert his honour and his power; oh that I could shew forth the mercies of my Saviour! 0 blessed Jesus, strengthen me for this purpose.

'How sweet the name of Jesus sounds,

In a believer's ear!

It soothes his sorrows, heals his wounds,
And drives away his fear.

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It makes the wounded spirit whole,

And calms the troubled breast; 'Tis manna to the hungry soul, And to the weary rest.'

Friday, 5.-Another letter was received

from him.

No. 10.

Oh what a blessed privilege is prayer; how thankful do I feel that now, in the time of my sickness and need, God has given me the knowledge of this comfort: what should I have done without prayer? and when I think how long I have lived in the neglect of this holy duty, had I not almost cause to tremble, lest when knocking now at the eleventh hour, I should have found the door for ever closed against me; but oh, how merciful is my heavenly Father! He even now listened to my cry; he did not turn away from the returning penitent, he heard my cry for mercy, and has indeed blessed me. He has given me the knowledge of a Saviour, and a blessed assurance that all sinners who believe in Him, shall have an interest in his dying love, his precious atonement, his glorious salvation! Only imagine what a reflection it is for me, that through this lingering sickness, when two or three times I have been so near my end; yet that my life should, contrary to all expectation, have been so wonderfully protracted till this time, when God has, in infinite mercy been pleased to

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